It felt good to write it all out, to get it all out. But I think I know why, now.
When I turned 29 twelve days ago, I looked back at my life, all my memories .. and I looked at them with the perspective that I have today, which is much different than I had years ago, and even more different than I had at the time of those events.
What I saw, I did not like. I saw things in ways I've never seen before. I gained vantages that I could not get at the time because I just didn't know enough to be able to.
Sometimes you can only realize your mistakes long after you've made them. So while I do learn from my mistakes .. it's not an immediate process.
On this I feel good about. Great, in fact. The best I've felt in a long time.
All I needed was some answers. I got em. Some from some friends, which go greatly appreciated.
So where to next? Well I didn't do much with my family in the recent past, so that's not changing.
As for who and what I am? Well..
We all are what we all are.
That is all.