Galen Wolffit (wolffit) wrote,
Galen Wolffit

Yeah, I got Galen some flowers and a Teddybear shipped to his work today. I may have a hard time expressing intimacy in person right now, but that's to show that I do still care.

I think the worst of the WB withdrawl is behind me. But it's a tough road ahead. I have no willpower to overcome it, but I also don't have any effort necessary to decide I'm not going to try to solve it. In a nutshell, I'm like a climber who broke his leg and fell into a river. It hurts to move so I'm just going where the current takes me for now. And from what I can see ahead, it's just shallow lazy water. Thankfully it's taking me in the right direction, so I'll be ok.

I talked with Phyxis last night for the first time in a while, and I got some helpful information. Dopamine plays a large role in the "satisfaction" process of the brain. With a lack of it, I derive little satisfaction from most things I do at the moment. This includes deriving no satisfaction from being bent out of shape, or angry, or sad, or anything. So it's not like I'm some raving lunatic. I'm just... mellow. I seem to do alright talking to people online, so that's what I'm doing for now. In person it's still kinda.. surreal. I can have a conversation, but it feels almost like giving a speach.

- Keman
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