About 6 months in this came back around to me in a negative manner, and I felt shocked. I immediately dropped the axe to sever whatever indications of this bullshit were which I could find. It took a long time, and even years later I'd make new friendships with people who, after getting to know me, would subsequently exclaim "Wow, you're a lot smarter than what some people told me about."
Slowly but surely, it transformed from "Yeah Keman's off working on his penis extension." to a more respectful "Keman's working on that mustang of his again, re-engineering it all on his own." .. and btw, I'm greater-than 8", so no really, I don't -need- an extension. That car and any other I own or have owned wasn't purchased to make up for some shortcoming on my behalf. I don't "show them" and they do nothing to make my life more "successful" ... they serve a purpose, and that purpose is to have fun and learn new things.
Yet still, even to this day, these disrespectful reputations remain. I occasionally hear it, mostly from friends on the west coast. Some people apparently refuse to believe that Phyxis didn't buy my way into life. And now it's thought that GALEN has purchased my way into life, and that he is now my sugar daddy.
When I moved from Michigan to VA, it was expensive. I borrowed over $10k from Galen to do it. It's amazing the costs that accrue during a move, especially with a short length of unemployment subsequently following the move. And I paid back every single dollar. He made sure of it, as anyone knows he's very responsible with money and simply writing it off just because we're in a relationship was not in the game plan. The grace he granted me was that he didn't charge me any interest.
100% of the Audi S4's initial downpayment, monthly payments, and insurance payments, are paid for by me.
The thunderbird was, and is, paid for by me.
The Mustang would be on the track, being raced all the time, except that I cannot afford to both race it and save for the house that Galen and I want to buy together. So it sits parked in the garage, as it has for years. I have no tow vehicle (I traded it for the audi), and my race trailer was stolen a few days after moving here. It was uninsured.
That being said, I'm well aware of the not-so-nice aspects about me. If people want to have a reputation about me, make sure they include the following:
I'm an asshole. Opinionated, aggressive, hostile, uncaring, vicious, self important, arrogant, ignorant, anti social, uncooperative, argumentative, controlling, manipulative, greedy, and careless.
If people have a burning desire to put me down, there is no shortage of faults to find. I'd just appreciate it if they would spend the time to find them, instead of making stupid shit up. And while they're at it, I'd appreciate it if they'd pause for a moment and think about why they're doing that. I almost never try to hurt people, what have I done to you?
Oh I know I've started some shit. And I know I've said my share of nasty things. This isn't about that. If anyone judges me by my looks or actions alone, they just destined themselves to failure. I'm a real piece of work, and even my enemies should realize there's a hell of a lot more than what meets the eye.