Every single time I go out driving, something bad happens.
It's bad beyond belief. If you live here, you know what I'm talking about. If you don't .. just be glad you don't.
I'm starting to think that I'm targeted moreso because I drive an expensive car. The envy and self loathing gets pushed a couple of extra notches when I'm around. Added to this is my sensitivity to those around me ... I have got to move. That's all there is to it.
Galen has a house here though, and a job with lots of security that in a couple more years, he'll have worked at for a decade. The only more senior people are the owners of the company and they really like him. And his housemate is the poster child for the ultimate housemate. Clean, considerate, quiet, intelligent, with good job security himself- he is quite the businessman working for the government.
Every day I start out trying to be nice, trying to be considerate. Trying to ignore what other people on the road do. But I can't ignore something of this magnitude ... and damnit I am NOT going to learn how to be so passive that I don't mind everyone being an asshole. I'm a good driver, yet I've been cussed out by more people opening their windows screaming obsenities at me in the last 6 months, than I have in my entire life. I've even had a fucking taxi cab pull up next to me and start cussing me out because he saw me do a u-turn after realizing the street I just pulled onto was 1 way and I was going the wrong way. It's not like I got in his way, there were no cars on the road. "He was just an asshole.", Galen told me. "That guy is just an asshole.", I keep getting told. "This area is full of assholes.", everyone keeps saying.
And to top it all off, everyone I tell this to is fully aware of it. Everyone I tell it to either has moved, or wants to move!!! Everyone who isn't an asshole is moving.
At least I know that what I'm experiencing isn't just all in my head. With all the new anti-speeding signs, the constant slew of new speed traps and the non-stop line of people being pulled over by cops ... I know it really is worse than it's ever been right now.
Maybe now isn't the time to be taking meds that improve my ability to pay attention?