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Feb. 23rd, 2005

Ok, lets take this from the top since it didn't get off to a good start and got mostly confused at best and seriously insulting at worst. The following is not directed at any one reader. It is my reaction towards the broken-assed relationships that I see many humans having all too often these days. The relationship I have with my mate is not normal by any means. For instance, Galen could go off and play with someone and it would not even spark the slightest bit of envy on my behalf. That emotion just simply doesn't exist. It isn't blocked out, it isn't hidden, I'm not kidding myself, I'm not suppressing it. It_DOES_NOT_exist. The relationship I hold towards Galen has been growing over time, and it's reached the point that's so high up on the totem pole, I don't think much of anything beyond death could tear it down. We've been through a lot, we'll go through a lot more. So this is what I say to broken people who are obsessed with covering up anything that hurts them, rather than communicating it and working through it. For those who refuse to believe that a problem exists, so they can feel better about their shitty lives.

You think your relationships are deep, but they are not. Yours exist to make up for what you lack. Ours make us stronger.

Your relationships balance precariously on simple concepts. Sex. Money. Lust. Ours endure all or none of that, regardless. A rock on a hill that gets rained or snowed on, or even struck by lightning. It stands.

Time wears your relationships thin. You only switch from high point to high point, ignoring the depths below. Time makes us learn, and we watch and listen all the more.

You compromise out of fear, we change because we want. You run and hide while we hunt and cherish. You give up all but we have nothing to give- we take.

There are many differences between us.

You think we are alike, but you are wrong. We only see ourselves for what we are-- you try to become something that you are not.

In the end, you fail where we succeed.

- My Werewolf side.

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kyhwana
Feb. 24th, 2005 06:08 am (UTC)
I used to be the same way, but a screwed up relationship (That was infatuation on the female's side) and now the after stuff has proved this is not true, which is really fucked up.

I think i'm probably too shallow to have a real relationship with anyone, especially on the level that you and Galen have, so I might as well not bother trying.
aerowolf
Feb. 24th, 2005 08:02 am (UTC)
Relationships are only as real as you allow them to be...
Relationships are only as real as you allow them to be in the first place. Interacting with a friend, going out and seeing a movie, having dinner and talking about stuff, discussing computer stuff, discussing coding... all of these are 'relationships' that you have with others.

I have problems when I allow myself to get unbalanced in a relationship. (Jealousy is, for me, an indicator that something is seriously wrong... and it's not something obvious.) So I'm learning how not to be... it's not easy.

But then again, nothing worth doing ever is.
kyhwana
Feb. 24th, 2005 09:10 am (UTC)
Re: Relationships are only as real as you allow them to be...
I of course meant the romantic/love/sexual/emotional commitment (all of the above in a single relationship/person(s)) relationships..
aerowolf
Feb. 24th, 2005 09:41 am (UTC)
Re: Relationships are only as real as you allow them to be...
I find it fairly insulting that you used the term 'real' to describe that form of relationship, honestly. The same way that I get insulted with the notion of "Real Programmers Use C", or "Real Accountants use paper ledgers" or something.

My relationships are 'real'. Whether they mesh with anyone else's idea of what a relationship should be is immaterial. :P
kyhwana
Feb. 24th, 2005 10:25 am (UTC)
Re: Relationships are only as real as you allow them to be...
Hmm. I take the "real" part back. Any person you meet you basically have a relationship with.
Just insert the four words I used above to describe ones partner.
There are more than just those four things involved in a relationship with your partner(s) though, but I guess that distinguishes it from everyone else you know.
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